Wilder's Whole World: Merry Christmas, Mom!

By: Dwayne Wilder


Wilder's Whole World

Merry Christmas, Mom!
Dear Mom:
It’s been awhile since I wrote; a year to be exact. But things here are all right. We are working and doing the home thing and raising your grandson, Ryan. Can you believe he’s 11 years old now? Almost 12?! No, I can’t either!
I trust things are going well for you. I hope they are. I am working for a new computer Web site. I am doing the same thing – reporting local news and features – but just for a different medium. I’ve never done it for an Internet site before but it is working out great!
Wilder_World.jpgYou remember how much I liked doing this sort of work when I started? I couldn’t believe I had finally found what was right for me! So, I went with it and haven’t stopped since—I’m so glad I could connect with those guys in the computer world. When my old newspaper went out of business, I was crushed. For a couple weeks there, I didn’t know what I was going to do. But it’s starting to work out now.
Debbi is still an accountant. She loves that type of work, too! Yes, she is still with the same firm in Bonham. She likes the auditing part of it but she gets into the taxes, too. She’s been there for six years now!
And Ryan! What can I say about our sixth grader?! He is wonderful. Yes, he’s starting to get ‘an attitude’ about things but I guess that’s normal. He will speak up for himself now; something he wouldn’t do before. I think he’s beginning to come out of his shell.
And what has he been up to?! Well, Ryan played ‘up’ in soccer this fall for the first time. He is 11 and played in the Under 12 Division last year but this year, he followed his team to the Under 14 Division!!! We were worried he’d be hurt by some huge guy three years older! He did take some hits and met with the ground a couple of times but mostly, he hung in there and fought. I’m glad he’s big for his age!!!
His team, the Denison Jackets, came in second in the fall league! We were all so proud of them! They got trophies and Ryan and his teammates really come together the second half of the season. It was great!
And listen to this! Ryan helped his school in an academic meet last week! He placed in five of his six categories and gained enough points to give his school second place overall! How about that?! Smart and athletic!!!
He is really coming into his own now; you’d be incredibly proud of him…
It’s so hard to realize that you’ve been gone for nine years now. And at Christmas, no less! Even though, after a few years, I realized that it was appropriate it be at this time of year. You loved Christmas so much! It was your favorite time of year! I know you didn’t get to do anything that last year, but I know it was in your heart because of all the Christmases before that year in which you made our lives and the season special.
You did it all, Mom! You decorated the house – wherever we lived – and made some of the decoration even! You cooked the traditional meal including the getting up at 4 a.m. to start the turkey or whatever had to be done. You never complained and I know you enjoyed our time together as a family all day long and all Christmas season.
You gave us five children thoughtful gifts and a wonderful home to unwrap them in. You cared so much and it showed year round, but Christmas was your time to shine!
As the years have gone by since your death, I have realized how special it all was to you. I have tried to do the same thing with Ryan, though woefully incomplete, but I try. Your strength and mild manner sustain me today and I know your memory will always be with me; even when I see my last Christmas.
Perhaps that is why I don’t write much; it is so hard to put into words what you meant to me and the others. Dad is still with us and I know he loves and misses you, too. But I can’t let a Christmas go by without telling you how I feel and to say, “Thank you!” for all you did (while corralling five children only seven years apart!)
I hope I can even light a candle to your legacy. I know I’ll never hold one to it, but I know how right and great your life was and I want to be like that, God willing.
I wish you could be here Christmas Day with us! I wish I could see Ryan in your lap or giving you a hug. (I wish I could give you a hug!) But I know in my heart that you will be there in every gift and every laugh we have. All the decorations were yours and we will use them until we don’t even remember where they came from…
I love you, Mom! And I know I didn’t tell you enough…Merry Christmas! I miss you…the season just isn’t the same…I wish you were here!
Love Always,

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